An Overflowing Broken Vessel
By Jessa Basa as told to the Testimonial Ministry
Ever since I was young, I felt there’s something missing in my life. It’s like a void in my heart that I didn’t know how to fill. I was born in a Catholic family and grew up going to church with them, except for my father. He never went inside as far as I could remember. Our family also does not talk about relationships and love for God. I grew up an introvert and could not open up easily to others. I studied college in a very liberal university in Baguio where there were lots of temptations. I was caught in their traps. After I graduated and found a job in the government, I still could not understand myself quite well. Added to that confusion was my boyfriend who became my foothold to sin.
It was a good thing I lived in a boarding house with roommates who are regular attendees of the Feast. They invited me to join them one Sunday. After some time, I agreed and in September 2016, I attended Feast ATC for the first time. The first thing that amazed me was the music and the worship. That was something I was looking for because other Christian religions have it. I continued attending and soon I went to the Wednesday Feast Festival Alabang (WFFA) where I eventually settled and continued my spiritual journey. When I was invited to the Lovelife retreat by a friend from work and her husband, I agreed to join that batch. It was held on March 25-26, 2017. It became the fire starter that taught me to accept myself along with everything I had – my imperfections, my past sins, my good traits, and everything else about me. I learned to also love myself more as God loves me.
While I was attending the Feast, I became a regular employee in my work. I thank God, I am surrounded by people who love Him. Even my boss is kind and God-fearing. I am now more open to people and I’m starting to build genuine relationships. I have left my sinful past and focusing on my relationship with God instead. I learned to love other people more in return for having fully received that love from God first.
It’s true what they say here at the Feast that God loves us whoever we are or whatever we have done in our past. We don’t need to be ashamed of our flaws. If we feel empty, He will surely fill us up.